Have you had your midlife crisis yet? Mine came a little early by some definitions. Some acute awareness of mortality infiltrated me in my thirties; it was an awareness not just of my own human frailty, but of the eventual death of everything. The expiring of every second and then minute; the realization that everything is meaningless because it is fading, and the simultaneous compulsion to get busy trying to accomplish something precisely because time is running out. Dave Matthews has a song lyric that says, “When I was young I didn’t think about it, but now I can’t get it out of my mind.” I think he was referring to death with that, and I think those words sum up the sort of heavy question
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